I’m a huge fan of Brezsny’s Freewill Astrology.  (I’m not necessarily an astrology believer but I think there’s some truth and patterns to it.  Rob’s horoscopes though are always a fan read and feel relevant).  The Sagittarius horoscope for this week reads:

“You can have it all,” says fashion designer Luella Bartley. “It’s just really hard work.” That’s my oracle for you, Sagittarius — not just for this week, but for the next three months as well. According to my reading of the astrological omens, the cosmos will indeed permit you to have your cake and eat it, too, as long as you’re willing to manage your life with more discipline, master the crucial little details everyone else neglects, and always give back at least as much as you’re given.

This is especially relevant right now.  I was planning on writing a post about New Year’s resolutions and my struggles to keep an exercise regimen going, make some health changes, hold down a full time job and start a side business in design.  Reading Rob’s horoscope this morning made me realize 1.) that it is all possible and 2.) that it’s going to take a real commitment and a lot of work.  I knew that but I didn’t know it.

Hard work?  Not a problem.  I can do that.  Giving back as much as I get?  Also, no problem.  I’m pretty generous and really enjoy sharing my good fortunes with others.  Discipline and mastering all the little details?  OUCH!  I think Rob just hit my Achille’s heel.  See I’m mildly ADD.  I’ve taken meds before but most people close to me, including Neal, didn’t like the changes to my personality that came with the meds.  Others like my mum believe that I’m not actually ADD but just have a different cognitive style than the norm.  Regardless of who’s right, one thing is true.  There seems to be a little cloud of chaos that follows me about as my attention and passions shift constantly from one thing to the other.  This has also been my biggest challenge: finding that singular focus and seeing a project all the way to the end before I zoom off on the next new thing.

My resolutions this year include the usual health and exercise and weight loss resolutions.  But the big one is that I’m going to get organized.  I’m going to get disciplined.  And I’m going to see projects through to the end.  I don’t have a strong system yet but I definitely have the motivation and the goals.  With some help from those I love and that love me, I’ll do it.  And it’ll be worth it.  After all, I really CAN have it all.